January 27, 2016 – Wednesday
Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV) “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
Some time ago, my husband took a big test that would give him a much-needed pay raise. He studied hard for several months. I took our two kids to different places every weekend just to give him time to learn. Unfortunately, my husband and I are both terrible test takers, and he failed. Now, he wants to take it again, and I’m trying to figure how we can pay for the test he failed, let alone pay for him to re-take it. Like most people, we live paycheck to paycheck.
Well, I got very mad at God. I screamed, “Why did You do this to us?” I cried, “How could You let him fail when You know he tried his best?” I gave up hope, questioned my faith, and even stopped praying – just to show Him how angry I was. A good friend took me aside to remind me of all my blessings: a beautiful house, a good job, two healthy kids, and a loving husband. Yet, none of that mattered because all I wanted was for my husband to pass the test and earn the extra money he deserved.
And then something happened… I read something… A glimmer of hope entered when I finally listened to God. Not job, nor house, nor even pay-raise — nothing matters other than following Him and knowing He has a plan for me and my family. And it’s only been a few weeks and the wound is still raw. I try to hold my head up high but some days are harder than others because we feel so defeated. And I wonder, should my husband take the test again? Or is this God’s way of saying there’s something else. And waiting on God’s plan really doesn’t help pay the bills.
But I’m no longer mad at Him. My husband and I will get through this with Him and become stronger because of Him. I don’t know when He’ll let us in on His plan, but that doesn’t matter. All I need to do is follow Him and have faith in His plan, not mine.
As you follow your own route to work this morning, make sure you also follow Him and have faith. It may be a rough day – shoot, it may be a rough year. Doesn’t matter. The only test you need to pass is to follow Him and have faith.
Yes, His is the only test you need to pass. Then He surely will get you where you need to go.
Dear God, thank You for giving me the strength to go on when all I want to do is quit. I know You have a plan much brighter than I can imagine. Thank You for always standing tall and being there when I feel so alone. In Jesus name, I pray. Amen.
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